写本文的目的在于近来看书产生的一种新想法。

    本书由德国历史学家Joachim Fest掌笔，将人带回纳粹德国最后的那段岁月里。在我阅读的过程中，我便感到很熟悉，源于那部电影《帝国的毁灭》，后来知道作者便是那部电影的顾问，恍然大悟。

    本书较为深刻的剖析了那个恐怖时代混沌世界产生及发展的各种原因以及一些历史疑问。有些话也是很发人深省的“一个像Hitler那样在历史和人类学方面全 然无知的人，把日耳曼人作为现代雅利安人，作为主宰种族，是很容易做出来的事。”——残暴蛮横甚至极端，一方面来自于无知。（这使我不由得想起一句俗 语：“没文化真可怕。”）

    早些年间由于我的幼稚与无知，总是带着有色眼镜去看德国人以及海对岸那个岛上的大和民族。既然那两个民族能在近十年间犯下如此滔天罪行，那么不管怎么掩 饰，你们的“劣根性”总在，到了关键时刻还会爆发。而看过一些国外历史学家的论著之后，我已经意识到了这种“劣根性”也是必然的结果（注意我加了引号），即那不是先天的。换做哪个民族落到那种境地，也许也会做出同样或是更甚的事情。当然历史没有如果也没有或许……

    渐渐的我再次体味到歌德的那句话“一想到德国人民，我常常不免黯然神伤，他们作为个人来说，个个可贵，作为整体来说，却又那么可怜……”德国没有如英国西 班牙那样的天然地理屏障，国内的河流沟壑反而加重了分裂的因素。在法兰西、日不落帝国磨刀霍霍向着全世界时，德意志还处于深度分裂中。没有谁愿意看到欧洲中部崛起一个大国，谁都要在这四分五裂的国界州界上加上重重的一笔。就在这样长期处于压抑中的国家，一战之后继续受《凡尔赛和约》的压迫，共和国成了替罪羊，最终独裁者上任……

    那个寒假我沉迷于日本战国，尽管很偏爱信长，但我却怎么也喜欢不起信长的继承者丰臣秀吉，一个很重要的原因是其自不量力越海妄图吞并大明。在今日看来，一方面也是很无奈的原因，近乎统一之后，本州、四国、九州、北海道四岛那少的可怜的国土，早已不能满足国内大名们的野心欲望。他必须扩张……因为历史已经发展到那里了……

    华夏民族在强大的时候是什么气魄，不必多言，大家都很清楚。

    故而，不可一味固执地认为“性本恶”，有些时候，那也是不得已而为之……

May. 30^th

6:15 a.m., I woke up. Although I was still sleepy and tired. I know I have to get up early. Today, Jogi would leave Shanghai. This is my last chance I could see him in China. I know he felt unsatisfied with the match. I wanted to comfort him, telling him Chinese Jogi fans always stand by his side!

8:00 a.m., Four Season Hotel. I unfolded my slogan, “Jogi, Ich bin für dich da…”, standing there numbly. Because our flight also took off from Pudong International Airport. So we took along our luggage. I was standing downstairs for two hours, with the laptop in my arms.

Sandy stood next to me, just like my sister.

Time was ticking away. There was something wrong with the information. 9:00 a.m., nothing happened. 9:30 a.m., 10:00 a.m……. It was quiet outside the hotel, except some tourist.

10:20 a.m., Jogi came out first!!! He came toward me, maybe he noticed my slogan. Maybe he understood than I took this special trip just for seeking him. He came out alone, signing for the national team fans. During this progress, he smiled to Sandy, as if met an old friend. But Sandy told me he smiled to me. I don’ t know. At that time, I was just a fool……

The fans got crowded. Just then, I shouted:” Jogi, I’ll always love you!!! I’ll always love you!!! I’ll always love you……” = =||||

I haven’t paid attention to his reaction. As long as he appear, my brain can’t work. But it is said from another fans, he stood in amazement. He looked at me and smiled again……

He return to the hotel. I still shouted his nick name. Conditioned reflex. I can’t organize another words.

The German player walked out another and yet another. They waved and smile to us, very kind.

Finally, Jogi came out again. I continued shouting his nick name:” Jogi! Jogi……”, holding my slogan.

Jogi noticed me, looking at me on the bus. He smiled to me all the time. In another words, we smiled to each other until the bus moved. I blew him a kiss. Unexpectedly, he blew me a kiss as return!!!! He is soooo charming, perfect…… I have no more words to express my feeling…… I’m so sorry with my English level……

When he got on the bus, I shouted:” Jogi, I hope you can remember me! I hope you can remember me! I hope you can remember me……” He continued smiling. On May. 27^th, I still asked my friends “ Does he remember me?” again and again. But now, I firmly believe that: He memorized me!

I followed the bus a few seconds. He turned round to look for me until I stopped.

I couldn’t image it before this tour of Shanghai. He is so kind……

When the bus disappeared, I felt dizzy. I was standing under the sun for a long time. Maybe I had a heat stroke or I was just too excited. The security guard of Four Season Hotel run to me asked that am I OK? Thanks to them.

I said goodbye to Sandy outside the subway station. I’ll miss you, my friend. See you again in the near future. 

Shanghai Pudong International Airport, I’m coming……

Actually, I am content with all that happened. Even if when I reached the airport, the plane had already set off. I have nothing to regret! But we still ran like hell. The luggage was heavy. I can’t figure out how I managed up the strength.

When we arrived at the airport, some GER fans told us they were in the VIP waiting room. We were a little late. But we could meet them when they walk out the waiting room.

Waiting again…… The door opened, the players come out. Foolish Astroscien~~ I ignored most of them, just searched Jogi, holding the slogan “ Jogi, Ich stehen immer zu dir!”…… At the moment he came out, many fans gathered around him. I was behind the crowd, I don’t want to rush ahead of another fans, and I don’t know why. I held back my emotion, just said to Jogi:” May I take photo with you?” To my surprise, he recognized me as if an old friend. He smiled again and said: “Sure.”

I came up next to him. Ah~~~ Then I threw my arms around his waist gentlely. XDDDDDDD He put his arm on my shoulder.

The time stopped…… I was not in storm. My brain was short-circuited. A few second……

The time was long enough. I let him go. The Aquarius don’t like being pestered. ;) I watched him out of the crowd, silently.

Unexpectedly, he sought me through the fans. Then he blew a kiss to me!!!! It’s really incredible!!!!! I want to cry when I’m typing my blog.

OMG…… Maybe he may know that I just came to see him from 1800 kilometers away…… Maybe he understand my hardship. He will remember me, I firmly believe that! A Chinese girl is fathoms deep in love with him.

“ Bye, Jogi!” I shouted to him…… Goodbye my love. ;)

When I returned my dormitory that evening, I couldn’t help crying. Everything was  strange to me. Tears welled up in my eyes……

Jogi, I miss you so much……

I love Shanghai, love that feeling. I won't stop miss you anytime and anyway…….

I’m looking forward to meeting you in Germany, study abroad in Germany is a nice choice.

The end......

May. 29^th

A dull and insipid day.

We planed to get up late. My sleeping time was less than 5 hours in total during this two days. Because of the friendly match, the German player won’t be get up early this morning I think. ;) They needed to store energy~~

9 a.m., I was awakened by my friends. They were drawing some slogan to Bastian, Arne and the team.

I have already finished two slogan. But I wanted to say something more to Jogi. I taken part in their project.

“Jogi, Ich bin für dich da…” “Lindsay” said that it’s a implicit way to express love in Germany. Lovely Jogi, I only wrote two slogan in German, and my banner is in German. I said “I love you” in German. Then you talked with us in German. However, I really can’t understand it…… Oh, dear Jogi, I’ll try my best in learning German. I won’t miss your word……

I finished my slogan as fast as possible.

The sun still shone brightly…… We reached Four Season Hotel at noon, so familiar……

There were many fans waiting upstairs the hotel. Suddenly, I didn’t want to wait any more. At that moment, I started to complain my obtuse brain. They were stop working when I face to Jogi. >_< God, please tell me why don’t I ask for taking photo with him on the night of May.27^th? That’s really a great chance! He even talked with us! Then my courage failed…… I was afraid to bother him at that time. I don’t know why……

Before long, my friend Sandy came to see me. She invited me to Starburk. The coffee is delicious~~ She told me her legend about watching the private training, attending Jogi’s press conference. I admire her courage! I even can’t image it before. She showed me some videos from the training and press conference. Jogi is really a gentleman, gentleman, gentleman…… We talked happily.

When I back to the hotel, the fans got more crowded. Then I asked Jinmei Wang to buy some newspapers. Cause there are many Jogi’s photos, he is so cool~~ And then we began to wander up and down the street aimlessly. Listening to the music “Summer days in Bloom” from Maximillian, sparing a thought on our fascinating Jogi, wanderding along the street, what a aesthetic myths!

Jogi, now we’re in the same city. The distance of 8000 kilometers did not exist any more. It’s incredible! Let me seal the scenery of Shanghai in my heart. Jogi, I love you, so I love this city……

After that, we back to our hotel. We met three Micha fans. They invited us to take photos together. Friendly German fans, lovely football addict.

18:30, Sandy, Rong, Lindsay and I got together at the entrance 6. We hung our banner in front of the first row, the opposite to the bench. We hope Jogi could see it.

And the match…… Our national team played very well, I felt happy with them. But on the other hand, German team was too tired. Cause the Bundesliga finished before long.

I just paid attention to Jogi. Today he was in a white POLO T-shirt. It isn’t his familiar white, black or brown shirt~~ Wow, he is still in good shape!!! Although I was addicted in his “Jogi shirt”~~

Jogi, so far away. I hate this running track. I can’t see you clearly…… Sometimes he stood up, shouting to the field. Sometimes he talked to Hansi dissatisfiedly. You just make my heart ache. Actually, I know the Asian tour made you feel awkward. The Bundesliga just finished, the player haven’t had a rest. You have to call together the team in just three days, overcoming the 7 hours time difference. And you can’t convene many key player. The media also criticized the Asian tour. They made things difficult for you…… However, you just kept happy with our fans, without a little sad. You always wave to us with graces. Being a head coach, you have to shoulder the responsibility and the pressure. You looked more older than three years before, when you cooperate with Jürgen Klinsmann. That’s OK. I love you more and more each day as time goes by.

At the end of the match, I put away my banner. I wanted to meet him at once eagerly. Jogi, you know, no matter win or lose, you are the unique hero in my heart. Are you happy now? I just wanted to see you, to cheer for you as usual. Your joy is my source of happiness, and your melancholy is the origin of my sorrow.

I took a taxi back to Four Season Hotel, unfold my slogan “ Ich Stehe Immer Zu Dir”. I telephoned my friend Xinqun Yang, another Jogi fan still in Beijing. She told me I just like a tender lady. = =||| In fact, my major is physics, I considered I’m girl with rational. But when it comes to Jogi, my character will be changed. I am no longer myself.

I talked with Lindsay outside the Four Season Hotel. She would be back to school at 5 a.m., May 30^th. Just like me, she came to Shanghai just for Jogi. We made a promise, we’ll study abroad in Germany. Hope to meet them in Germany again.

Afterward, we met Arne, Bastian and Phillip. They celebrated the birthday party with Arne. Further more, we said happy birthday to Arne. ;D

It’s 3 a.m. again, I went to sleep late.

      This is my first English blog. Chinese is my mother language. Please forgive my grammar mistakes. ;P

May.28th

I fell asleep at 4 a.m., because I was too excited. I typed my thoughts in my laptop for a long time, although I was very tired. I know I can’t sleep, I must try my best to memorize these.

It turn out to be that it’s just a beginning of the tiredness.

I woke up at 6 a.m.. A new day of waiting upstairs the “Four Season Hotel”. I just hope to see Jogi again.

In front of the mirror, I dressed up for a long time. ;P Actually, I’m not a girl who pay much attention to my appearance. But I want to show my best to my dream lover. It’s so funny, isn’t it? ;)

8 a.m., we arrived at Four Season Hotel. We waited silently. I looked upstairs from time to time. Dear Jogi, did you looked upstairs occasionally? Did you see your fans waiting for you?

Once I can’t understand any crazy idolater. But now I’m one of them. I can understand their feeling.

The sun shone brightly……

We just saw Hitzlsperger in the morning. I met the challenge that I can bring Hitz’s sign to a friend who loves Hitz so much. ;D Hitz is so cute, he smiled shyly. Maybe he never thought that he has many fans in China. ;D We taken photos with him, he was so fine.

12:20 a.m.. Heidemann appeared. We shouted: ”Xiaoyue, Xiaoyue……” (Her Chinese nick name.) She waved to us friendly. A beautiful girl fencer!

Jogi went out after her! Therefore the crowd burned out:” Jogi! Jogi! Jogi……” He was in a white shirt, white shirt…… Your white shirt, it’s made me crazy for you.

Jogi went to the Portman Ritz-Carton Hotel to attend his press conference. I left my friend, taking a taxi alone, aiming at the Portman Ritz-Carton Hotel.

I was late. It was quiet in front of the hotel, as if nothing happened. I stood there for a little time, watching the sky, without sorrow. I started to walk along the street. Shanghai is a beautiful modern city. This is really a fantastic thing. A summer day in Shanghai, a sunny noon, I chased after your step. I went after a beautiful man in a beautiful city.

It’s time to go to Shanghai Stadium. When I back to Four Season Hotel, my friends and I prepared setting out to watch their open training session.

I hung my banner with the help of two Chinese Jogi fans. At that time, a German football fan asked me the what words on my banner. I answered:” Jogi, you are the best! I’m his fans.” He smiled to me, said that I’m not the only one. Yeah, I know Jogi is very popular in Germany. ;-) Then he asked me which team I support. My answer is both~~ He laughed and said:” no matter which team will win, you will be happy.” ;D

“ Jogi!!!” I began to shout. The national team reached the stadium. He was in white T-Shirt, black shorts, red socks. Ha, just a great scenery~~ I stared at him during the whole training. I do not want to miss any chance to enjoy his every single movement.

Now I feel so sorry for Jogi, because my voice is too loud. >_< Maybe it made him felt embarrassed. Sorry, Jogi, I just want you to know I love you. I don’t mean to bother you.

At the end of the training, German national team kicked many footballs to the stands. Hansi and Jogi went under my banner, took a few balls to the fans. Hansi is sooo cute!~!~!

My seven meters banner was taken by some press-photographer. You can find this photo from Gettyimages.com, Daylife.com, profimedia.cz, anp-photo.com , picture.belga.be…… ;D

http://www.daylife.com/photo/01lT7oOdiTdDd?q=Joachim+Loew

      和4594他们一样，这个09年——国际天文年（OMG，我还能记起这个IYA）的日食，全食带经过长江流域的日食，俺们其实老早就开始期待了。只是到了节骨眼上，想要退缩。

      老早就想着，08、09年，我已经高考完毕，到时候肯定会去现场看全食的。然而08年的暑假，我全部处于复读高考失败后的崩溃阴影中，带着没有进入天文学 系的怨念，在北京看了一眼偏食。有什么意思么？真的没什么意思……就是太阳被啃了一块么，又不是没见过……好吧，也许09年我当年的感觉回来以后，就有意 思了吧。09一定要出京追了。

      所以这次，之所以匆匆忙忙跟馆里到武汉去，完全是为履行当年的想法。根本就不是：我爱天文观测。

      20号出发前的准备阶段，我是相当业余的。由于去年10月爸才引进的40D，我除了寒假一直在成都，所以相关设备都没配齐。三脚架、快门线都是现配的，最 后也没买到巴德膜，还是我自己把我望远镜上的滤光片改造了一下才用上。我只在19——20号列了个拍摄计划，长焦镜头也没时间买了，就带了个可怜的 17-85变焦头去了，那样拍出来的太阳，也是指甲盖大小。

      相关的报道我是一点都没看，动不动就“500年难得一遇大奇观！”奇观个毛！！！！！日食基本上一年就两次懂不懂！！！媒体都不能负责点么？！？！？！不 知道，就别老瞎写愚弄听众。——看见了吧，就是这样……常识错误满天飞，我也不知道哪里来的无名火……天文学吧，还是老样子，搞得人不多，所以随便一个稍 微知道点儿的，都能骗过霉体拉来当“专家”。

      事实上，也是有不少朋友给我发来短信问我相关情况的。最雷我的是一位姐们儿20号左右发来的：22号有日食你知道么？这么说吧，日食预报这件事，以现在天文学的发展水平来看，是可以做到很精确的，所以不用你提醒我……

      另外的就是一些问题了。那天晚上网上一朋友问我买望远镜的问题，我就特别不耐烦……我对不起大家，我真的很不耐心，这完全不赖你们，全是我自己的问题。天 文学留给我的永远是失望失望再失望：从创新大赛——06年CAO——07高考崩盘：无缘师大天文系——08再崩盘：和南大天文系说拜拜。就是这四个事件， 搞得我现在一提起天文，无话可说！你们……还是继续问吧……要不我在这个世界上就真么没什么价值了……

      人家为了追全食都上到海拔多少米以上。我早没了当年的激情，所以就匆匆的跟了bjtwg里的团。最关键的时刻全被云挡住了，我活该，谁叫你心意不成的……只是对不住和我一起观测的发烧友们，和我这个扫把星在一起，准没好事……

    最最可恨的是……我，在听说全食观测的那几个重要据点全不会因为天气挂掉的时候，竟在暗自庆幸：我可有理由错过这次日食了！自我面壁中……

      我也不知道为什么，在大家谈起天文的时候，我选择逃避，拿出手机塞上耳机开始听音乐，音量很大。我不想听，就是不想听……家长在家里看日食节目时，问我看 不看，我永远一声怒吼：换台！朋友有让我带出去观测的，我永远也是奉劝：要是不喜欢就别跟着起哄，哪儿那么浪漫——流行一划而过没时间许愿；你们看到的漂 亮的星云星团都是HST那个水平的望远镜长时间曝光拍出来的，肉眼没那效果；另外后半夜还会冻死人。殊不知，我自己早就不是铁杆观测爱好者了……

      真的很讽刺……先这样吧……13号有流星雨吧，刚想起来……

      第13届欧洲杯，将于北京时间6月30日结束。几天前我便开始担忧，没有欧洲杯的日子该怎么过……毕竟，下赛季的英超要等到8月16号才开战。当然也托德国队的福，不像00、04欧洲杯那么惨，才让我享受了一个完整的欧洲杯。

关于“意料之外”

诚如魏诩东所言，决赛对阵的结果，很多人都猜到了，但过程怕是很多人都没料到。的确，土耳其人的顽强，令人惊讶，值得所有人敬佩。国足那帮，你们可好好学学！！！在主力伤的伤，停赛的停赛，最终只剩14人，替补守门员准备改打中场的困境下，土耳其人被激发出了前所未有的斗志。一时间打得德国队慌乱异常，上半场的1∶1，算德国队的运气，无论从控球率，还是射门次数上看，土耳其队上半场占绝对上风。这也能解释，想想96年的德国队，许多队员都是带伤上阵，连卡恩都要改打前锋……若不是土耳其人这次碰到意志力顽强德国队，搞不好真会一黑到底。

而西班牙对俄罗斯那场半决赛，竟呈现一边倒的局势。让人不禁要问，打败华丽荷兰队的俄罗斯哪去了？这是真实的俄罗斯队么？赛前很多人认为俄罗斯队最有黑马潜质，我也这么想，以为他们就算输也能输得很体面。结果，俄罗斯队下半场基本被打蔫，斗牛士刻意放慢速度，不停的短传早耗尽了俄罗斯人的耐性。阿尔沙文被禁锢，新沙皇就这么结束了自己的欧洲杯之旅……

要说德国3比0完胜土耳其，西班牙3比2险胜俄罗斯，这结果貌似符合逻辑。但事实恰恰相反，此所谓足球的魅力。

关于“变阵”

还说德葡大战，此役胜利的主因在变阵，德国队主帅果断地从442变阵4231，解放了巴拉克，使其充分地参与到进攻当中。勒夫在包厢中即斗赢了老谋深算的大菲尔。不是我歌功颂德偏爱谁，要知道，变阵这一招对于德国人来讲，绝对需要极大的魄力。

06世界杯上，德国一套442阵型打遍所有7场比赛，这在四强中是绝无仅有的（四强都打7场比赛）。放大来看，16强中只有厄瓜多尔、瑞士只采用一种阵型打了4场比赛。那两国足球我不了解，但4场比赛用同种阵型，总比不上日耳曼人的执著吧。

反观其他四强，意大利用4312打了第一、二、四场比赛，2胜1平；用4411打了三、五、六、七场比赛，3胜1负。

法国人共采用了4种阵型，小组赛前两场4231，平瑞士、韩国；第三场442，胜多哥；第四场4411，胜西班牙；剩下三场均用451，胜巴西、葡萄牙，平意大利（点球意大利胜）。

葡萄牙两次变阵，小组赛仿佛他们的实验场（就这么一说，肯定不妥！），首场4231一球小胜弱旅安哥拉；次场451两球胜伊朗，而后淘汰赛均用此阵，2胜2负；小组赛第三场433，2比1胜墨西哥。

摆这么多数据只为说明，以严谨著称的德国人在绿茵场上不喜欢变阵。勒夫也只是在欧洲杯之前与英格兰的友谊赛中采用过4231，况这是迫不得已的，缺兵少将情形下的无奈之举。

至于变阵的好坏与否本人无权评价，战术方面我是个实足的门外汉。但谁都能琢磨出来，变阵需要勇气，这是有风险的，赢了自然大功一件，输了则成众矢之的。看看06年那史上最强英格兰队是怎么毁在埃里克森手上的，5场比赛竟用了4阵型，最匪夷所思的还是那个451……我并不是说变阵不好。不过看到过这样一句话，倒是觉得甚有道理：“一个能够制造胜利的阵容（指德国队的4231），‘懒惰’的德国教练们都不喜欢变化，其实很多教练不是不想主动变阵，但他们普遍注意积极性，变阵会影响到球员的积极性。”当然面对土耳其，这阵容不像打葡萄那么好使了，但主要还在土耳其人一上来的猛冲猛打让德国队不适应，或是未料到。（一个只剩14人的球队，谁会想到会有如此猛烈的攻势）

德国教练的理念，也是坚持自己的方针，永远贯彻下去，不因对手改变而改变。这我理解，也支持。决赛沿用4231，没意见。

关于“德国获胜的几条理由”

尽管阵容上德国队不如西班牙来得华丽——圣卡西镇守大门，巴萨队长普约尔领衔后防，Arsenal中场核心在国家队当替补，继承劳尔7号的比利亚、金童托雷斯锋芒毕露……（虽然貌似比利亚上不了决赛，托雷斯不在状态，但还有古伊萨啊。）而我仍然坚信，德国队终能捧回德劳内杯。

历史，首先说的还是历史。刚查了一下，德国队（含西德）与西班牙在正式比赛中交手19次，德国队8胜6平5负，进27球失21球，略占上风。东德与西班牙交手3次，1胜2平，进1球0失球。怎么算都是德国队占上风，心理上，德国队有底气。欧洲杯中，德国队五次进入决赛，三次决赛中获胜，这奇高到绝无仅有的效率，会给西班牙人压力。

风格。这是力量与技术的碰撞。众所周知，两球队完全是两种风格。德国队以意志、身体、力量著称，西班牙则是技术至上。所谓一物降一物，日耳曼战车最不怕技术型球队。看看西班牙是如何费劲的赢下对瑞典的比赛，若不是比利亚最后的灵光一现，最后很可能以平局收场。德国队刚有了赢葡萄牙的心得，相信会在下场比赛中起到重要作用。

临战状态。西班牙人刚刚迎来了一场酣畅淋漓的胜利，这是比埃尔霍夫的话：“昨天西班牙赢得很轻松，这对我们来说或许是好事。往往在前一场表现出色的球队在之后的比赛中的发挥就会打点折扣。”这话有理！德国队刚赢完葡萄牙，对土耳其的上半场仿佛回到了对克罗地亚的状态。意志力顽强的日耳曼战车，也是遇强则强，碰上强队，更会激发出他们的求胜欲，而那样的德国队，战无不胜！

点球，就算最后的德国队运气太差，在点球这一关，全世界没那个队敢跟德国队叫板。勒夫曾说过，06世界杯德国与阿根廷点球大战时，他的心跳不超过每分钟60下。在一本杂志上也看到过，很诙谐，若要和德国队比点球，请马上祈祷上帝……

先说这么几条吧，以后想起来再补……

还是那句话，德国队08欧洲杯登顶！